(A-Z April Blogging Challenge)
I was going to tell you some funny nursing stories for the letter “N” but then my brothers insisted that I watch “Moneyball” tonight with them which inspired me to go in this direction instead. So, “N” is for “not”, as in this phrase, “pull the trigger…or not”, meaning do whatever you are thinking of doing or don’t. Decide on a direction and take that path or don’t and go the other way but choose. In the movie “Moneyball”, they had to get the Oakland A’s baseball team including the coaches and managers to buy into the “Moneyball” theory 100% to even test the theory. They needed to get the coach to play their way. To do that they had to make hard decisions to get their theory from paper to life out on the baseball field. The general manage (played by Brad Pitt) had to ask his assistant manager (played by Jonah Hill) if he believed in the theory 100%. It was the assistant manager’s theory. Yet, even he was hesitating and hedging on believing in his own theory. They had to believe in it 100% to pull the trigger and make the hard decisions to see the theory come to life. That’s when I started thinking, do people in life (outside of a movie) really believe 100% in what they are doing or are most of us standing in the middle? Are we afraid to make a decision, to pull the trigger, to take a chance to succeed? Do most people not even try because they are afraid of failing? How do you know you are going to fail, if you don’t try? If you do fail, is it really that awful? Wouldn’t you keep trying to get it right or would you stop trying just because you tried once and failed?
People who are largely successful, tried, made mistakes and even failed but they tried and they kept on trying. Julia Child sent her book to several publishers, rewrote it several times and rejected multiple times before an editor read, cooked and loved the manuscript enough to get it published. It took her almost 8 years to see her dreams become a reality. Would most people do the same? It is sad to say that I see and hear of so many people who are afraid of even pulling the trigger and trying. They become stuck in a place of “unknown”. What if I had tried? Would I have succeeded? Or would I have failed? (Here is the part that is ultimately saddening) It’s better I didn’t try because I don’t have to deal with that failure. Please forgive my bluntness but failure (to me) is not trying…not trying at all…not learning to succeed. The “not” will become the “what if” in your life. A long time ago, I decided not to live my life with “what if’s” but rather I tried it and I learned….
This is my favorite quote by Marrianne Williamson:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.
And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.
A couple of last questions: Are you standing in the middle? Have you decided to pull the trigger on your dreams and make them your reality or are you afraid to succeed?